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I said no more emotional posts. So i will be away for the time being.

Part 1 of my national day holiday

Who am i to you? I am struggling with that answer too you know? I will pick up the broken pieces and pull myself together. I am tired of crying. You dont have to accomodate me, be yourself. I thank god for allowing me to know you. I thank god for all the memories we have especially this period of time. I have nothing more to ask. I thank you for being so ever frank with me today. I think i have done my best i have no regrets for once. I wont ever mention this again and after this post, no more emo posts anymoreeee. You are the first guy who has never failed to be there for me always. You make me laugh, you make me cry, you make me have a one of a kind feeling. I think thats what makes you special. You try your best to not get me astray with bad company and have always tried your best to please me. I know that im not an easy person to please especially with the past. We have had both good and bad memories and i am happy for that. On some days you really make me so angry I could just break down and cry. But this allows me to look back and smile in the future. I am sorry for what has happened yesterday. I hope you'd forgive me. I should not have hug you and make it seem as if you were suppose to feel the same way. We will be happy in time to come, at least. So i truly hope you'd be happy and be with the girl you truly love, i say that sincerely from the bottom of my heart. I promise tomorrow will be a better day.

Love,
Rachel

我们都累了却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑怎么说 怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人等着对方先说想分开的理由
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走的太远终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我要有两个相反的梦

From: http://lyricstranslate.com

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Headed over to chomp chomp, frolicks and ice cube last night with claire and ziying for dinner and supper. Crashed at claire's crib after that and hell alot of laughters were made. I love her house so muchhhhhhhh , if only one day i would be able to earn that amount of money to have my own. Heh heh a balcony would be beautiful.

I managed to catch up some sleep today since i did not go for the celebration in school. I met Evan and some others for lunch before heading for some K box session and shopping at Haji lane! WE BOUGHT A COOL HAUNTED CHANGI TSHIRT AND GOT OURSELVES $2 OFF EACH FOR OUR MOVIE TICKET WHEN WE WATCH IT IN CINEMAS ON 2SEPT!! Finally have time to actually relax and do what i want.............I shall be back for more updates! Xx

Somehow..to a certain extend, we will all be tired of trying to be the best we can...

Despite the amount of Ups and Downs i had in total today, these girls made my day! Especially ziying. I want to thank each and everyone of you for the laughters and jokes because it made me smile. I miss you guys very much, sorry about fri!!!

Why did you do this to me? Why?
Why the hell did you do this to me? You made me cry
Was it worth throwing away everything we had had?
The times we spent together and the times we could be together
Dont you miss? Dont you care? Now you
are ok without me?

Im kinda starting to miss our dirty, smelly, insect infested chalet bunk! I miss how one group would sleep up in the room, while the other group would be playing cards and another group would be watching movie. I miss how we would wake each other up ,i miss how we would all gather and lie on the mats to watch Orphan and One missed call, i miss how we would all get shocked by Christopher's actions during the scary ghost shows. I miss everything. Time flies, and school has already started today. Its scary how time waits for no one, it just keeps on ticking by the second. Im all messed up, and i dont know why either. Why do i feel this way?

Class chalet was a blast, despite having some problems in between. But if i knew such things were gonna happen i would have most probably chose not to go. I've learnt my lesson ziying and megan :) Thanks for the advice anyway.....I had the best of time with my classmates ,the best classmates i've ever had!!!!!!!!!!!!! Going through 2 years filled with ups and downs together, doing everything together, all the memories are still etched deeply in my heart. If i was given a chance to choose the class I can be in again, it would still be you guys! I really hope you guys enjoyed the 3 days as much as I did! XX